[Which feels about right. Despite everything they get up to behind closed doors, it's impossible to ignore the fact that Ash is still a good person. Still cares, far more than he probably should.]
i earn a paycheck from the gym everything left after i pay for ithemba goes to you that's the only way i'm saying yes
( so says the extremely petulant man child president of the united states. ash, generally, doesn’t compromise. he forces, until he beats an opponent, or they break under the magnitude of his want.
but bucky isn’t an enemy. they are equals. ash doesn’t have to like how he goes about expressing it, but it does have to accept it. )
Not everything. I’ll charge you rent. That’s a stationary amount, and you can do whatever you want with the leftovers. That’s the deal.
If you really think giving your paycheck to me will convince you we are equals, I’m willing to give it a try. But we talk about it if it isn’t working. Both of us. Okay?
[Hold on a moment while he scrolls back through his images to find- Aha!
Cue a picture of his cock, very much erect, and very much kept from coming by the tie that’s wrapped tightly around it as a makeshift cock ring. Sure, Ash hadn’t been the recipient of the image the first time round. But that doesn’t mean he wasn’t on his mind at the time.]
haven’t figured out how to get come out of silk yet
( lust and jealousy are twin flames inside him — the latter only fanning the former, which makes ash zoom in and stare at bucky's swollen, red cock, the discomfort as tangible in the photograph as silk is between your balls. ash would've done it tighter. ash would've had him crying. )
You put it in your mouth and you lick it off. Haven't I taught you to clean up after your messes?
( something about the question makes ash frown, though. arthur is — well he’s the king of camelot. just, fair, and good. some of those words feel applicable, but the goodness inside of maxen ashley colchester is a topic of frequent debate. he’s not sure where he falls on the side of it now, but he knows he isn’t the symbolic vestige of morality and bravery that arthur is meant to be.
in short, he feels a little like a sham with that question in the air, like maybe he should be, but isn’t. )
[He wants to push back. Wants to point out that Ash barely knows a fraction of what he's done before. How he's anything but noble. But he already knows how that conversation would go. Knows that they're both equally as stubborn when they're set in their opinions. And yet somehow, Ash would end up on top.
So he doesn't push. Leaves his response buried, and instead-]
most kings get their positions through blood their people don't really get a choice in following them or not
( it does feel special — the dip in his mood, an ever present depression when ash feels he isn’t doing enough, and the way bucky sweeps that mood away with a wave of his hand. it’s odd to smile, when no one’s around to see it. )
I lied a little, before. There’s another reason why I called you that. It feels … I don’t know what the word is. Strange, I guess. It’s strange to talk about.
[A friend, naturally. Someone he trusts, definitely. But it's more than that. Something that slowly builds with each conversation they have. Each time they meet. Putting a name to it might not be on the cards just yet. But he knows it's only a matter of time.]
i'm not gonna force you but you know you can talk to me about anything ain't gonna judge you no matter what you say
( well. if things are ever going to get serious with bucky, honesty comes hand in hand with that. it’s not like he’s ever outwardly lied, but he has kept things to himself. stayed quiet when his word felt the need to take on a different name, talk about a different person. )
[Because every detail that Ash has shared about himself has been tucked away. Hoarded and protected. Each glimpse of the man he is back home feels too important to dismiss, no matter how small it may seem at the time.]
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[Which feels about right. Despite everything they get up to behind closed doors, it's impossible to ignore the fact that Ash is still a good person. Still cares, far more than he probably should.]
i earn a paycheck from the gym
everything left after i pay for ithemba goes to you
that's the only way i'm saying yes
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( so says the extremely petulant man child president of the united states. ash, generally, doesn’t compromise. he forces, until he beats an opponent, or they break under the magnitude of his want.
but bucky isn’t an enemy. they are equals. ash doesn’t have to like how he goes about expressing it, but it does have to accept it. )
Not everything.
I’ll charge you rent. That’s a stationary amount, and you can do whatever you want with the leftovers. That’s the deal.
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but you let me raid your fridge when i need to
[Which is basically the same thing anyway. Between Ithemba and his stomach, its not like there's anything else he spends his money on here.]
and i'll come to you first if there's anything else i need
[Because that's one compromise he's willing to make. If only because he knows that Ash isn't the type who'd hold it against him later.]
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But we talk about it if it isn’t working. Both of us.
Okay?
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deal
[And, well, because this has gotten a little too heavy-]
i owe you for a replacement tie anyway
kinda ruined one of yours
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( intriguing, intriguing. )
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Cue a picture of his cock, very much erect, and very much kept from coming by the tie that’s wrapped tightly around it as a makeshift cock ring. Sure, Ash hadn’t been the recipient of the image the first time round. But that doesn’t mean he wasn’t on his mind at the time.]
haven’t figured out how to get come out of silk yet
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You put it in your mouth and you lick it off.
Haven't I taught you to clean up after your messes?
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guess it didn't take
might need to teach me all over again
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I’ll think something up. Be ready not to leave the bed, tonight.
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[...yes, he's very aware that he's playing with fire here.]
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Or maybe I'll set up something to tie you to. You've given me a lot to think about.
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[Typing, deleting, typing, deleting. He knows he can trust Ash. But giving him something like this- It's taking a little working up to.]
i found something here that'll work
that i can't break
if you wanted that
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winter to stop
snap my fingers if i can't talk
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Then yes, little knight. I want.
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[A set of restraints that looked far too much like magcuffs for him to have left in that store.]
why do you call me that?
it's not the first time
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You remind me of a knight. One of King Arthur’s knights, maybe.
Noble, chivalrous, romantic. A real Don Quixote.
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but i think you've got your wires crossed
i'm not any of that
[And because he's got to ask-]
so does that make you arthur?
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You’re all of that and more.
( something about the question makes ash frown, though. arthur is — well he’s the king of camelot. just, fair, and good. some of those words feel applicable, but the goodness inside of maxen ashley colchester is a topic of frequent debate. he’s not sure where he falls on the side of it now, but he knows he isn’t the symbolic vestige of morality and bravery that arthur is meant to be.
in short, he feels a little like a sham with that question in the air, like maybe he should be, but isn’t. )
I like the thought of being your king, at least.
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So he doesn't push. Leaves his response buried, and instead-]
most kings get their positions through blood
their people don't really get a choice in following them or not
that ain't us
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( it does feel special — the dip in his mood, an ever present depression when ash feels he isn’t doing enough, and the way bucky sweeps that mood away with a wave of his hand. it’s odd to smile, when no one’s around to see it. )
I lied a little, before. There’s another reason why I called you that.
It feels … I don’t know what the word is. Strange, I guess. It’s strange to talk about.
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[A friend, naturally. Someone he trusts, definitely. But it's more than that. Something that slowly builds with each conversation they have. Each time they meet. Putting a name to it might not be on the cards just yet. But he knows it's only a matter of time.]
i'm not gonna force you
but you know you can talk to me about anything
ain't gonna judge you
no matter what you say
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Do you remember when I mentioned my VP?
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embry
the soldier you fought with
[Because every detail that Ash has shared about himself has been tucked away. Hoarded and protected. Each glimpse of the man he is back home feels too important to dismiss, no matter how small it may seem at the time.]
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